once in a blue moon

Sejenak di Dungun... sambil menonton downloaded series of Nora Elena.. 

(Im probably the last person on earth yang baru tengok cerita ni)

Jijah : Cantik kan si nora elena ni..

MM : Ha ahhh..

Jijah : Kalau ayg cantik mcm nora ni mesti abg suka.. kurus langsing..

MM : Mcm ni pun suka... nora liza... debab sikit jek.. 

hehehehe... 

MM.. we are at the 6th year of our marriage... 

U never fail to make me laugh.. 

Though u always drive me crazy...

lambat angkat call.. lambat return call.. 

lambat smpi rumah.. lambat hantar duit.... heheheh.. 

One thing for sure.. 

u never stop making me be crazily in love with u.. 

semoga tuhan berkati hubungan kita..

happy 6th anniversary sayang..

(sebenarnya dah lepas.. twas on 30th July)

*tetiba update blog kan... laju rupanya streamyx kat ceruk padang pulut ni.. hmmm.. malam ni nak balik klang dah.. masa dah "time".. how time flies..  huhuhu

sendiri sensorang

susah bila duduk sorang² ni.. silap haribulan melayan jiwa sampai kacau.. tu yang jadi jiwa kacau.. sungguh tidak baik untuk kesihatan tuan tanah.. tapi serius.. bosan.. mak dengan abah tak jauh.. tapi idak le akak lalu nak duduk terkepit bawah ketiak depa sedangkan kita dah ada rumah sendiri kan? 

Thus.. rutin akak kini adalah tido di rumah sendiri sensorang, buat hal sendiri sensorang, syok sendiri sensorang, pegi sekolah sendiri sensorang, balik sekolah baru lah pergi rumah emak mencekik makanan cover dinner malam itu, and then balik rumah.. siap²  untuk titon.. begitulah gaya seseorang yang sendiri sensorang  setiap hari.. 

bagai pungguk rindukan bulan jua.. tiap² malam bergayutan di henpon seperti remaja lagaknya.. of course le dengan suami tercinta.. bila udah duduk jauh begini lain pulak pesennya.. dulu.. duluuuuuuuu.. ada aje yang mencari pasal.. sekarang ni.. bila dah masing² sendiri sensorang.. syahdu aje bila bercakap di telefon.. mesej pun.. siap ada mukadimah lagi.. kekekekek.. cubalah kome acu try test style kami ni.. 

tetapi.. bila sendiri sensorang ini.. nak buat apa² haruslah sendiri sensorang jua kan? pagi tadi kemas² dapur.. terjumpa roti dah berkulat.. haihhh.. akak korang lufer ada roti expired antara balang yang tersusun tuh.. sekali bukak peti ais.. ehhh.. ada roti lagik.. baru teringat ni belen roti yang buat meatballs kelmarin.. maka dengan itu.. selamat lah aku mentransformkan roti² gebu ini menjadi puding roti.. sekali lagik..  

kelihatan sedikit hangit? tidakkkkk.. itu ilusi optik semata.. sebenarnya kemera henpon yang tidak berkualiti dan mungkin juga.. akak telah menabur sebalang cinnamon powder on top of it..  errr.. sapa nak abiskan semua ni?

percayalah.. memang akak makan sepotong ajek.. errr.. dua.. kompom.. dua ajek..  oklah.. nak mikio ape nak buat dgn belen puding ni.. nak jengok jiran sapa yang ada aku nak paksa rela depa makan.... ciao!!

tiada makna

Ada benda yang tak kena tapi aku tak tau apa dia. Semacam tak sedap hati. Percaya tak sebaik sahaja habis kelas tuisyen jam 9.30 tadi aku cuma membaca(tipu; berenti kejap masak maggi untuk MM tadi).. sehingga sekarang ini. Menjengah blog-blog yang tersohor. Tersohor bukan sebab ramai pengikut tapi penulisan yang sangat menarik untuk dibaca. Ada isi yang mantap sehingga mampu menarik perhatian untuk dibaca mesipun tanpa gambar² yang menarik. Yang penting tiada unsur² menunjuk atau show off langsung. Aku terasa amat malu..

In my defense.. kadang² berlaku satu fenomena tidak tahu hendak tulis apa dalam blog. Maka, tercipta lah entri yang ala menunjuk atau show off. Sekali terjebak, terus addicted dengan perhatian yang diberikan. Entri ala show off mudah dan senang. Pergi membeli belah seorang diri dan tiada tempat untuk berkongsi juga menjadi faktor untuk entri begini. Kurang seronok menikmati the shopping pleasure seorang diri. Jangan ditanya mana MM. Dia lelaki dan dia seorang workaholic. Bad combination for a shopaholic.

Niat asal aku tulis blog hanyalah untuk mencari wadah dan ruang untuk memperbaiki mutu Bahasa Inggeris. Bertugas di kawasan luar bandar dengan bahasa ibunda yang pekat memang tidak membantu dalam memperbaiki mutu Bahasa Inggeris aku. Namun, setelah hampir 2 tahun, aku rasa kecewa kerana masih tidak mampu menguasai bahasa kedua ini dengan baik. Bercerita tentang hal bahasa ini, terus terang aku katakan.. aku tiada masalah untuk berkomunikasi dengan rakan² yang bukan orang Malaysia. Maklumlah dunia tanpa batasan. Masalah sebenar ialah apabila aku cuba berkomunikasi dengan rakan² baik yang sememangnya berbangsa Melayu yang mempunyai kemahiran berkomunikasi berbahasa Inggeris yang sangat baik. Luruh terus rasa yakin. Aku terasa sangat bebal...

Albeit perasaan bebal ini, sebagai seorang pendidik, aku tidak akan putus asa dalam usaha aku yang satu ini. Tapi, belajar sendiri tanpa guru, molekkah hasilnya?

Terdetik pula di benak hati dan fikiran aku ni kenapa aku tak boleh menulis macam anak-anak muda itu. Kebanyakan blog yang dijengah tadi milik mereka yang masih muda daripada aku. Namun, pengisian mereka segar, matang, penuh keyakinan dan juga punya lenggok bahasa yang baik. Jujurnya.. aku dengki dan iri hati dengan kemampuan mereka.. hmmm.. amat terasa kerana aku di usia yang sudah memasuki siri ke 3 kehidupan masih tidak mampu menulis sebaik itu. Aku tak pandai untuk menulis dengan jujur di samping mengekspresi diri tidak kira apa keadaan dengan yakin. Bila aku jengah balik apa yang telah aku tulis dari awal hingga yang terkini dalam blog ini.. ada terselit rasa kecewa. Aku terasa macam sampah..

Kenapa ya? Mungkin kerana aku tak ikhlas. Mungkin aku kurang membaca. Apabila kurang membaca, maka kurang menulis. Penaakulan mantik. Mungkin juga, aku simply got no talent in writing at all. Period. Lagipun aku cikgu ilmu kira².

jijah & tonsil

adoilaaaaa... kak jijah demam uols.. terkena jangkitan tonsilitis.. org ganung kata "dok ghok".. malam tadi gi klinik kat sura gate, kena marah dengan doktor sebab lambat dapat rawatan.. menurut doktor itu.. tonsil akak adalah amat mengerikan.. right now akak tengah rehat kat rumah sebab doktor bagi MC.. doktor kata dia bagi antibiotik paling power untuk akak.. tapi tak kebah² lagi dan bengkak tonsil tu pun tak surut lagi. And being all alone kat rumah semasa sakit adalah sangat menyedihkan.. huhuhu.. tapi MM dah siapkan semuanya sebelum dia gi kerja.. ubat, air milo, roti, biskut, air cap badak by my bedside.. terubat juga kesakitan tekak dan emosiku.. huhuu.. sambil tunggu MM balik bawak roti butterscotch this noon and more air badak.. harus akak layan The Vampire Diaries kan.. sebab nak tido pun tak boleh.. asek terjaga jek sebab sakit sangat la tekak ni..

My Vile Obsession

It has been more than a week since my 30th birthday and my life is pretty much the same.... Cuma... lately.. I was struck by lightning showers of flower...

Mula-mula... this roses above was given by MM weeekkkkssss ago kat Sg Petani... longgg before my birthday... nopeeee... it wasnt the valentine day's either... adalah satu kes kan... biasalah suami isteri... ehhehehe... nak pujuk punya pasal *wink*.. baik kan MM? My heart was all kembang the whole day... sebijik macam kera dapat bunga.. almaklumlah... memang dah lama gila ok MM tak bagi bunga kat Jijah gini...

Thanx to MM again... since he was the one who downloaded it.. I am now over obsessed of this Korean drama.. the BOYS OVER FLOWERS.. I was wayyyyy drowning in the series... so much la nak find remorse over hal² duniawi kan... aduyaiiiii... I have all the images from the drama screwed tightly in my mind... GU JUN PYO.... YOON JI HOO adalah makhluk tuhan yang sangat hensem... ye Jijah angau... teruk betul... dulu masa dok gila TWILIGHT pun tak gini.... I even spending today browsing the youtube and other web pages looking for more infos of the cast... worse... I have been downloading the OST and keep playing it non stop since afternoon... hahhh.. jangan terkejut kot Cik Jijah boleh cakap Korea pulak lepas ni.. ARACHI?

Begitulah kiranya... nih nak bagitau satu rahsia.. last Wednesday Jijah gatal layan cerita tu sampai pukul 4 pagi. Believe it or not.. I took a day leave the next day.. tau kenapa? Mata Jijah bengkak² sembab semua tau... menangis tak renti² during the scene when the hero left the heroin because of family pressure... to be exact the hero's evil mom... sedihhhhh amatttt uolsss... so Jijah cutikan diri Jijah sebab takut nanti if gi sekolah jugak timbul pulak spekulasi Jijah perang besar the nite before with dear MM... kenalah jaga nama baik suami kan?.. haihhhh... matilah kalau big boss tau... shhhhh!!!!

Hmmmm.. more or less... nothing much has changed since I turned 30.. I am still soooo young at heartttt.. ehehhehee... jangan la muntah ijo pulak ye dek kerana obsesi Jijah yang vile ini ye... by the way.. nak show off something... ehhehehe.. my 30th b'day present... kali ni kalau ada yang nak muntah jugak... suka atilah... ehehhe...

hehehheee... Jijah sangat gumbiraaaaa... :D

its my shiny new toy... thank you MM... muah!!!!

as per request

Baiklah kawan2.. and you know who you are.. sila lah tengok hasil tangkapan Jijah ketika hujan lebat tempoh hari... masa sale jek Jijah mampu membuat tangkapan besar gini.. kalau tak sale.. sekadar memandang dari jauh sambil menggigit kuku dan memendam perasaan.. my mis tres hermanas.. janganlah korang menyampah dengan kakak korang ni ye.. I am just so pathetic and helpless in this matter.. tak berdaya dik.. hikksss..

ni pesen twist namanya..

ni pun twist jugak..

ni pesen biasa tapi 2 tone

yg ni pesen latest kata SA tuh.. twist jugak...

yang ni tak ingat la jenis ape..
pesen batu gamaknya..

Yang ini.. spesel.. ecewaaaahhh.. haaakkk tuuiii.. still I just cant help myself to camwhore.. yes I know.. I AM THAT PATHETIC ok.. tapi kalau tak posing dan berPERASANG dalam blog sendiri.. kat mana lagi akak nak buat dek nonnnn.. memang tadek can punya...

eerrr.. ni pun pesen batu jugak..

ya ampunnn... silalah abaikan kulit muka yang kusam dan kering itu.. kalau perati sangat takut hilang selera makan pulak nanti.. ok.. itu sahaja hasil tangkapan terbesar setakat ini... sekian terima kasih!!!

mendung berarak

apakah maksud frasa di atas? tiba2 ayat itu terlintas aje dalam hati.. sebenarnya tak paham pun makna dia.. almaklumlah Jijah ni kan cikgu kira-kira.. dulu panggil ilmu hisab.. sekarang.. matematik.. ehhhh.. mathematics.. well you know.. Jijah siap gugel u olllsss.. tapi merepekssss aje semua pun..

Minta maaf lah ye.. hari ini mood Jijah ala2 mendung gitttteewwww.. rasa macam nak menjerit.. nak memaki? takde.. confirm balik.. hmmmm.. nak maki takde.. tapi nak jerit aje.. karang Jijah jerit2 karang habis la jiran2 datang pulak kan.. so Jijah tak mau lah create a scene.. kalau Jijah saaaannnttteeekkk ala2 Maduri Dixit ke boleh la consider kan.. hehehhehe..

Minta maaf la jugak.. sebab hari ni mood Jijah bukan takat mendung ajek.. mau hujan pun ada.. tak tau la apa kes.. kan baru balik holiday kan.. maybe... PMS.. itu jelah yang boleh Jijah fikirkan pun.. hehehhehe..

Basically.. mood Jijah seperti mau nonton cerita2 hindustan.. ala2 kuch2 hota hai ke.. dil to pagal hai ke.. mau hujan puas2.. kalau boleh biar banjir terus.. mau let go everything.. eceeeehhhhh.. meluat kan u ooollllsss!!

oklah.. pasal holiday semalam best.. nanti Jijah review kay.. esok lusa ke.. Now.. Jijah nak cari kleenex.. tisu.. daaaaaaaa...

little mermaid

Watched her at Oprah last nite.. was it last nite.. not sure.. being a weeper I am.. I just couldnt stop crying watching this free spirited, enthusiastic girl.. whose parents were told twhen she was born that she could only be alive for 72 hours somehow, God's will, she managed to celebrate her 10th birthday last August.. Meet Shiloh Pepin..

Sadly.. I found out she had passed away last October.. The only hope and wish that her parents ever had was to watch her grow.. but I guess God loves her more..

Knowing her.. and watching her story.. made me realise how lucky I am.. how lucky my family is.. Just so you know.. Our youngest brother is an OKU.. somehow.. I feel that its actually a blessing because we are the chosen one.. and I am so grateful.. indeed.. So embrace your life..

He was not that into... ME!!!

Last Ramadhan, there were days when I had been in no mood to teach so that one day I planned to make some Raya card with the Year 1 pupils.

There is this particular boy, Irham who I liked to tease for his blabby mouth, sometimes naughty and mischievious too... He maybe naughty but he is so smart and honest. Once he got 86% for his test and he came to me asking," teacher, kenapa markah kita banyak, kita buat tipu2 je" ... hehehheeeee..

That day, while creating and making the Raya card, I joked and teased him..

Cikgu Liza : Irham, buat kad untuk siapa, buat untuk teacher ke?

Irham : Dakkkkk.. kita buat untuk orang lain..

Cikgu Liza : mana boleh.. Irham kan boyfriend teacher..

Irham : tak mbohhhh.. mana ada kita boyfriend teacher..

Cikgu Liza : Alaaaa.. Irham buat la.. Selamat Hari Raya teacher..

Irham : tak mmmbbbooohhh.. ( panjang nada tanak dia)

I giggled and left him to see the other pupils.. when he suddenly called me up and came closer to show his card.. it was the ugliest ever!!! hehehee.. but something that were written caught my eyes..

and Irham said, " cuba teacher baca.. kita suka sapa.." bersungguh-sungguh dia!!!

I burst into laughter.. He was actually so determined to prove that he was not into me!!! heheheee... budak umur 7 tahun..

Irham even said more," kita geram tengok kak teh.. "

I asked him back," kenapa geram kat kak teh? nak cubit pipi dia ke?"

Irham simply answered, " tak tahu laaa..."

Hehhehehehehee... Kids kids.. anak2 kecil ini sangat cute.. so honest..

the lucky girl.. kak teh @ nasreen najah.. :)

Irham.. my boy.. teacher loves you even more!!

A Letter for Him On This Day

Dear,

This year again I am grateful to almighty Allah SWT for letting me be by your side on this special day.. I have been celebrating your special day for 6 consecutive years.. and this year will be the 7th.. and last night when I wished you, you said the best present that you always wanted and the best ever is your wife.. that got me melted.. I want you to know that I still dont know what to give you as my token of love on this special day... as I am still searching and in return I would like you to know that you have a special place in my heart that you have had from the very start.. through out all the good and bad times.. I hope and promise that I will always be your birthday present for many more years ahead.. that I will always have the chance to celebrate your special day together for more consecutive years.. as your wife , I am so proud of you.. so proud that I have u as my husband.. and loving me unconditionally.. I wish you all the happiness in the world.. and more success in the future.. I will always be by your side.. always... Happy 30th Birthday sayang..

yours truly,

sanity keeper

what's in a life of this so called cikgu liza? hmmm... i have been asking that question over and over again.. have u ever hit that point? have u ask urself the same question like i did? what answer did you get? did u get the answer? did u answer it? is it my mid life crisis? i thought only men would get it.. or am i not thankful for what i have now?

i was born in a family of 7.. magnificent 7.. though the upbringing was not as beautiful as others but every family has their own story.. and being the eldest certainly was not easy.. the memory of me bashing my brother so merciless is still vividly in mind.. yup.. i was a fierce sister... and yet i have quite a good education background.. i think.. i have a degree which qualify me enough to get quite an ok job.. i mean i have been doing various job before i became a teacher.. which now i love being one.. i was in love several times, betrayed and in love again.. with the only man who i think.. is a bless from god.. and is my husband now.. so.. i should be thankful.. i must be thankful for this life.. and i realized.. i do.. i am so grateful.. now.. i am relieved.. i still have my sanity..

dear readers.. i think blogging keep me sane.. whenever i was about to get angry over some ridiculous thing.. apart from all the rituals as a muslim.. writing is another way to channel the mess out of my mind in the right way..

the main issue is i was a tad bit angry with MR MZMRIZA this afternoon.. because he did not iron his baju melayu for the solat jumaat prayers.. so the issue got us into a minor quarrel.. it ended up into a small cold war.. and then he went for his jumaat prayers.. and i went for prayer too.. started blogging and i realized it was all my fault.. maybe i was bz in the kitchen preparing lunch but i should have gotten his baju ironed earlier on.. which i was totally forgot to.. sorry abang..

i was also a bit tensed for the reason that i am going to be the MC for my PIBG meeting tomorrow but i am having quite a bad flu and cough. They said the rest of the school requested that i should be the MC since according to them, i have a lovely voice... at first i was quite over the rainbow but then i realized that i was the only one who can speak standard malay flawlessly.. i think so.. since most of my colleagues are local... i hope that i wont be coughing a lot through out the event.. which i am now avoiding all the cold drinks and hot foods.. sound like a singer preparing for a big concert though..

i also got a new task yesterday. My HM had personally wanted me to prepare a booklet on the school profile and create a new design for the school's flag.. though she did gave me some idea but i am not that creative.. quite angry in the beginning since there is a lot of other delayed task but now i realized that my HM believe in me.. and i should feel that this is an honor instead of a torturing task.. well maybe its actually a torture since the school will be evaluated for the ALS but i have to give my best for the school.. i must think positively.. you go girl!!!

its such a relief when i was able to let it all out.. friends.. thank you for spending some time to read my silly and absurdity thoughts..

and sometimes.. it would be good if i have the chance to get myself treated like this.. spa anyone?

image:http://www.liveandlearn.net.au/

rindu..

rindu.. serindu rindunya... ya allah... rindu nye kat bbbieeeyyyy... rindu sangat nih... hmmmm... wahai hati... cuma tinggal three and a half days to go jek lagi... kejaaaapppp je lagi... trying to comfort myself...

sejak dari dulu
ku menyintaimu
kau tahu begitu namun kau berpura
ku masih teringat kau peluk diriku
yg telah membuat ku menyintai mu

sudah berapa lama
diriku ini
tak bertemu mu
mungkin ku harap jua
kau merindu ku
sebagaimanaku rinduimu

cinta antara kita
tiada penghalangnya
walau akhir usia
ku menyinta dirimu
ku hanya menunggu mu
menyata kau cintaku
ku kan berjanji
menyintamu syg....

setelah kau pergi jauh dari sisi
tiada ku cinta selain dirimu
ku ingin bersama dgnmu selamanya
walaupun sehingga ke akhir nyawa
mungkin kau tak mengerti
maksud ku dulu pada dirimu
kiniku kan menyinta dirimu itu sehingga ke akhir waktu

cinta antara kita
tiada penghalangnya
walau akhir usia
ku menyintai dirimu
ku hanya menunggu mu
menyata kau cintaku
ku kan berjanji
menyintamu syg....

sudah berapa lama
diriku ini
tak bertemu mu

mungkin ku harap jua
kau merindu ku
sebagaimanaku rindumu

cinta antara kita
tiada penghalangnya
walau akhir usia
ku menyinta dirimu

hanya menunggu mu
menyata kau cintaku
ku kan berjanji
menyintamu syg....

cinta antara kita
tiada penghalangnya
walau akhir usia
ku menyintai dirimu
ku hanya menunggu mu
menyata kau cintaku
ku kan berjanji
menyintamu syg....


angau nih... engegegeggehehhh.... arrrragggggghhhh....

love is coming home...

love in chinese..

.

alhamdulillah... bbbieyyy is coming home... mcm tak nak tido je mlm ni... asek2 nak tgk jam je.. lmbt sgt la rasanye nak tggu esok.. why cant time move faster... huhuhu... it have been 2 weeks since he left for dungun... hmmm... wonder how he looks... hehhhe... asek mkn luar aje kan... aku pun aper kurangnye... dah 2 weeks tak jumpe nasik.. diet?.. hmmm... more to trying to have a healthier meal prior to headaches and bloated feeling i had lately.. nak gi check up.. tapi takut... ishhh...

by the way.. since bbieeeyyy is back.. it means lot of works to be done.. dobi rumah.. the bedroom.. yup.. especially the bedroom.. got to change the sheet.. blanket pun... mesti letak blanket yang dia suka tuh.. kat dungun bbiiieeyyy tido atas toto je... balik ni.. you'll be the king again...

oh my god.. i have to cook.. dah lama la tak masak.. nak masak ape nih... bbiieeeyyy suka mkn nasi... hmmm.. let's see.. sambal petai udang... dengan gulai lemak labu... pekasam goreng cili... ok la tuh.. bbieeeyyy tak cerewet.. but i like to pampere him with food... fill up his tummy first.. baru pike lain2 services... heheheh...

love massage...

When she is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind

When she is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply

When she looks at u with eyes full of
questions,
She is wondering how long you will be
around

When she answers "i'm fine" after a
few seconds,
She is not at all fine

When she stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying

When she lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever

When she calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention

When she sms's u everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once

When she says I love you,
She means it

When she says that she can't live
without you,
She has made up her mind that you are
her future

When she says "i miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more
than that.


adapted from-www.wordofwisdom.com

i guess it juz me... always in the mood of angau...

unconditional love.. in the la la land...

Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That's why it's called the present... this is the third day for my husband been working far far way at the la la land.. taklah.. dungun terengganu je.. which is about 300 to 400 km from where i am now... hmmm... demi sebuah kehidupan... yelah... tak semua benda yang kita nak kita dapat... it comes with pengorbanan... at first.. well the earlier stage of our marriage.. it was hard... i used to be a typical woman who was hoping to come home everyday after work to prepare myself for my husband during nite time.. his dinner... watching news, tv program together.. making coffee for him... hmmm... well... it didnt happen the way i expected it to be.. i chose a civil engineer as my husband.. the work depends on the duration of the project.. and i guess i forgot to prepare myself for all the consequences... mula-mula dulu dia kat kuantan.. then ipoh.. then alor setar... then kuala kgsr... dekat lah masa kat kuala tuh... but still he couldnt be home everyday.. it took him 4 1/2 hours to travel to and fro... so he was only home every two days jek... i took quite a sometime to accept it.. but my dear husband.. didnt give up on me.. he comes to me.. to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly... that's who he is... who always believe in me without any prejudice...

alhamdulillah bulan pose ni.. ramadhan al mubarak... tuhan Ya Rahman Ya Rahim telah membuka mata hati ku... aku dah tak tensen mcm dulu.. cuma kadang2 tuh risau.. especially bila aku call hp.. he didnt pick it up...aaa... yang tuh pantang tuh... well im still working on it... terlampau risau pun bahaya gak..

abang... you are a blessing from god.. to me who is so full of flaws.. for that... i will always love you...unconditionally.. moga Ya Rahman Ya Rahim panjangkan umur kita...sihatkan tubuh badan kita.. panjangkan jodoh kita... ayang janji.. ayang akan cuba jaga diri, hiasi peribadi untuk abang... ayang promise ayang will be less complicated and not to be any drama queen anymore... ayang realize now.. that everything happens for a reason... kan abang... ayang saaaayang abang... muah!! jgn lupa batik sutera ayang tau...