rindu..

rindu.. serindu rindunya... ya allah... rindu nye kat bbbieeeyyyy... rindu sangat nih... hmmmm... wahai hati... cuma tinggal three and a half days to go jek lagi... kejaaaapppp je lagi... trying to comfort myself...

sejak dari dulu
ku menyintaimu
kau tahu begitu namun kau berpura
ku masih teringat kau peluk diriku
yg telah membuat ku menyintai mu

sudah berapa lama
diriku ini
tak bertemu mu
mungkin ku harap jua
kau merindu ku
sebagaimanaku rinduimu

cinta antara kita
tiada penghalangnya
walau akhir usia
ku menyinta dirimu
ku hanya menunggu mu
menyata kau cintaku
ku kan berjanji
menyintamu syg....

setelah kau pergi jauh dari sisi
tiada ku cinta selain dirimu
ku ingin bersama dgnmu selamanya
walaupun sehingga ke akhir nyawa
mungkin kau tak mengerti
maksud ku dulu pada dirimu
kiniku kan menyinta dirimu itu sehingga ke akhir waktu

cinta antara kita
tiada penghalangnya
walau akhir usia
ku menyintai dirimu
ku hanya menunggu mu
menyata kau cintaku
ku kan berjanji
menyintamu syg....

sudah berapa lama
diriku ini
tak bertemu mu

mungkin ku harap jua
kau merindu ku
sebagaimanaku rindumu

cinta antara kita
tiada penghalangnya
walau akhir usia
ku menyinta dirimu

hanya menunggu mu
menyata kau cintaku
ku kan berjanji
menyintamu syg....

cinta antara kita
tiada penghalangnya
walau akhir usia
ku menyintai dirimu
ku hanya menunggu mu
menyata kau cintaku
ku kan berjanji
menyintamu syg....


angau nih... engegegeggehehhh.... arrrragggggghhhh....

hari menuai kebangsaan... ekkekkk...

hari menuai?... hari ape?... haaaaaa... in my school.. menuai is refered to hari gaji... ekekkeke... menuai... harvesting.... get it... setelah sebulan bekerja... tibalah hari menuai hasil... aaaaaaa... biasala keja gomen nih... kais bulan ... makan bulan... heheheheh.... and me... of course... as well as the others... menuai dgn jayanya.... heheheheh.... so today... i tried my best to leave for school early... because i need to withdraw my gaji!!!!!... before all the atm machine become OUT OF SERVICE... hehehehh.... selalunye... aku tak heran pun duit gaji nih... selalu jadi orang last yang bayar "duit kutu"... tapi sebabkan raya... aaahhhhh... gasak!!!!

so i successfully manage to withdraw all my duit gaji... rite after school... i went to town... and settle the bill first... managed to settle kelisa's road tax+ insurance too... got home... i try to list out bajet... huh... raya kan... banyak expenses la... bila dah bedak2 duit... tgk balik duit gaji... ala... dah tinggal half jek.... sedeh gak... tapi org kata jangan berkira sangat... duit nih come and go... boleh dicari... rezeki kan.. buat pe nak tensen sgt....

It takes a brain to earn money, but a heart to give it.... hehehhe... its a reminder.. to myself... where actually bbbiiieeeyyy always try to teach me... and i refused to listened... in the end... its always me... who got all the idea wrongly... from the very beginning... sebab ape?... sebab i always being so emotional... i wanted to be rite so bad.. till i realize that i actually have no idea what was it all about... it was my ego.. damn you ego... huh...

Raya Oh Raya.... Keja Oh Keja.....

Senin baru nie aku tinggalkan isteriku... cian aku nengok.. bukan dekat tau terengganu nun sebelah banjaran titiwangsa... it takes about 7 hours.... Pejam celik..pejam celik...lagi 9 hari je lagi... nak lik jumpe orang tercomey... hunny....
rindu yang amat....counting days.... " esok 8, lusa 7, tulat 6, tonggeng 5.... eh ape da tonggeng...." 28 september 2008... Bos plak bagi kelepasan balik awal.. heheheheh....naik tocang aku!!! half day je... then chow...bole la bukak puasa kat umah mak... " mak... masak sedap- sedap tau..." dapat cuti 7 hari raya nie.... kire o.k le....
Dengar- dengar gaji 23 hb nie... macam keje kerajaan la pulak....first thing to do is renew road tax... kalo x....kene kantoi aku... dah la ops sikap dah nk mula... road block banyak lak tue... huhuhuhuhu....
Keje- keje... otak penat..... hunny....tolong....... Ade EOT report nak kene submit to JKR, ade progress photo to HQ, monthly planning report to HQ, technical minutes of meeting, progress and project report nk kene submit to JKR... berasap la kpala aku bila dah siap....Ya Allah... tolong la aku.... Nak wat camne kan... kene buat jugak sampai siap sebelum cuti raya..... Dah Kroje Namenyeeeee..... Heheheheh.......

saloma bistro...

last nite.. after buka puasa.. as usual bbieeyyy called.. but this time... he told a news that i loved so much... the new company that he is working for now will be having a raya dinner at saloma bistro... on 12/10... just a week after raya... i was so excited to hear it.. it had been years since i left kl.. dulu masa keje kat kl... ada la dua kali wat function kat sana....ada sekali.. just lepak2 dgn kawan2 citibank.. yang maybe wont recognise me anymore... hehehhe... nice food... nice view... nice restaurant...

hmmmm... ntah apa aku nak pakai malam tuh... nak pakai baju kurung ke?.. hmmm... kena something yang more elegant la kan... yang boleh hide "ketidakcuttingan" badan ku ini... hahahaha... nak pakai kebaya... with all my flabs.. no thanx... nampak mcm busted cushion jek... nak pakai jubah ke?... hmmm... im short.. jubah will not express me well.. im short.. i will be reflecting a tree with all the big leaves.. rendang ajek.. nanti la ... pening la pikir pasal attire nih.. hmmm... lagi ape ye... high heels... mesti..wajib... badan dah macam tempayan pun ku gagahi jua untuk menyeret bonia 2 1/2" ku... hehehhe... tak la tinggi sangat pun... cukup2 la nak cover the "balancing" of my husband and me... bayangkan.. i am 1.48m.. bbieeeyyy is like 1.76m... jauh beza tau... hehehheh...nasib baik untuk bbbieeyyy dah ada baju batik... tak la nampak sangat macam engineer cabuk... ekekekke... hmmmm... i need to find something yang mesti match dengan baju batik bbbiieeeyyy...

hmmmm.. got to go now.. kejap je dah weekend.. nak balik kampung petang ni... tengah tunggu my sister to be home... then i will drive both of us home for about 2 hours in her picanto... optra tinggal kat rumah... suruh dia jaga rumah plak... ekekkekekk....

back to class..

waduhhh... tensen beb... seeing the faces of my post upsr student... i went to the class after so long i have not been able to do so.. since the UPSR xm last week.. i have been having some stupid-non-educational-task.. and last monday.. as being a good wife to my dear husband... i had to accompany him to the labour court.. my husband had claim over his former company (c@#$$^&p%&#$ sdn bhd) for his compensation prior to his unnoticed termination.. i will tell the story some day.. not now.. cos we are still waiting for the result.. the judge said it will take one month... hmmm....

yesterday i was a bit down.. and today... my blood pressure my have rise to quite a high level... erkkkkrrrkkkk... it was my pupils... ooooohhhh... it wasnt their fault pun... it was the system.. in this country.. it was all short term planning... all the exams.. it was all 100% exam oriented... sbb tu lah.. bila habis exam.. they are not interested tgk buku dah... nak release tensen katanya... ddduuuhhhh.... i was pissed!!!...

what did i do?... ok.. habis exam kan... so? i am not gonna leave them unattended in class.. without any task... and let them scattered arround.. macam dah tak payah belajar apa2... so i gave them some simple maths puzzle... they were complaining!!!... during my days dulu... when a teacher gave a puzzle... or riddle... my frens and i were challenging each other to see who got the answer first... but nowadays.. takde pun!!!.... i did not really scold them... i might have nagging them... it was maybe my fault either... i suppose to have it as a quiz ke.. keep points track ke... tadi tak terfikir la... hmmm... i will try to apply that tomorrow... kalau tak jadi jugak... i want to sulk sampai abis hari raya... gggrrrrggrrgrr....

bbbiieeyy... if you are reading this... sorry.... i know you maybe scare if i would be like one of those mothers... marah anak tak tentu pasal... suka membebel... hhhhmmm... i promise i will control it... tapi that's the nature of me... aarrrggghhhh.... macam mane ni bbieeeyyy...

minal aidil wal faizin...

When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile.... hmmm.. pernah tak rasa mcm everything is not fair... the surroundings doesnt seem to support us in our doings?... hmmm... takkan tak pernah... its the ups and downs dalam hidup kita kan...

well... that is what im going thru now.. ntah mcm maner.. this week i felt mandom jek.. its all started after bbieeeyyy went back to dungun... its not his fault... i just felt a bit depress... hmmm.. premenstrual effects kot... ye kot... allllaaaaa... melepas lagi bulan ni... ingat kan dapat pose penuh la bulan ni... takpela... takde rezeki lagi...

time pass by so fast... kejap aje la.. pejam celik... pejam celik... tup tup... there's only 1/2 month to aidilfitri... tolak ari nih... tinggal 12/13 hari je nak raya... masa kecik2 dulu... excited gila2.. tak sabar tunggu raya... bukan dapat baju baru pun.. yela.. dulu masa kecik susah gak... jarang la dapat baju baru... masa dah besar baru pandai cari sendiri... masa bebudak dulu.. yang best raya nih.. masa hari raya tuh... dapat makan macam2 jenis food... hobi pun makan.. so memang bestla... pastuh.. dok tertunggu2 program tv yang best2... pastuh bila raya yang ke4 or 5... mula la round kampung cari duit raya.... betsnyer...

now... everything have change... bila dah besar nih... hmmm... tengok member2... some are so excited smpi shopping sakan... shop till drop la katakan... baju baru.. langsir baru.. sarung kusyen baru.. belum lagi yang beli set sofa baru... keta baru pun ada... im not into that.... as long as bbbieeyyy ada... dapat jumpe sanak saudara... cukupla... baju baru buat gak... heheheh... tahun ni... baju kurung 2 pasang... bbbieeeyyy plak baju melayu johor sepasang... main theme tahun ni green... heheheh.... tu je lah... its more than enough for us... lagi pun banyak belanja akan habis for duit raya contributions... huhuhu....

by the way... tahun ni raya will be at sungai petani... its bbieeeyyy's hometown punye turn... hehehe...

kedah.... here we come.....

love is coming home...

love in chinese..

.

alhamdulillah... bbbieyyy is coming home... mcm tak nak tido je mlm ni... asek2 nak tgk jam je.. lmbt sgt la rasanye nak tggu esok.. why cant time move faster... huhuhu... it have been 2 weeks since he left for dungun... hmmm... wonder how he looks... hehhhe... asek mkn luar aje kan... aku pun aper kurangnye... dah 2 weeks tak jumpe nasik.. diet?.. hmmm... more to trying to have a healthier meal prior to headaches and bloated feeling i had lately.. nak gi check up.. tapi takut... ishhh...

by the way.. since bbieeeyyy is back.. it means lot of works to be done.. dobi rumah.. the bedroom.. yup.. especially the bedroom.. got to change the sheet.. blanket pun... mesti letak blanket yang dia suka tuh.. kat dungun bbiiieeyyy tido atas toto je... balik ni.. you'll be the king again...

oh my god.. i have to cook.. dah lama la tak masak.. nak masak ape nih... bbiieeeyyy suka mkn nasi... hmmm.. let's see.. sambal petai udang... dengan gulai lemak labu... pekasam goreng cili... ok la tuh.. bbieeeyyy tak cerewet.. but i like to pampere him with food... fill up his tummy first.. baru pike lain2 services... heheheh...

love massage...

When she is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind

When she is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply

When she looks at u with eyes full of
questions,
She is wondering how long you will be
around

When she answers "i'm fine" after a
few seconds,
She is not at all fine

When she stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying

When she lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever

When she calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention

When she sms's u everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once

When she says I love you,
She means it

When she says that she can't live
without you,
She has made up her mind that you are
her future

When she says "i miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more
than that.


adapted from-www.wordofwisdom.com

i guess it juz me... always in the mood of angau...

Everything is okay in the end, if it's not ok, then it's not the end....

it have been days since i logged in last week.. i have been so lazy lately.. there are tones of unfinished work.. datelines waiting.. all the reports and paperworks... arrrghhhh... bbbiiieeeyyyy... i miss u... hmmmm... well the show must go on... "everything should be okay in the end... if its not.. then its not the end yet"... i didn't c0me up with that by my own... i quoted it from someone else... hehehhee...

so.. today is the first day of UPSR.. i was assigned to be the pengawas peperiksaan.. at sk simpang empat... with 123 candidates.. i was beat!!.. it was awful.. i had to walk around the hall which is actually is the combination of 4 common classes in order to observe the exam... it was a must for the whole hour of each paper... there were three papers today... pemahaman, penulisan and maths paper 2... each paper at least took 1 hour to be settle... including the packing of the answers script.. which is very very confidential.. anyway it seems like this year.. perak's paper will be assessed by pemeriksa in negeri 9... wonder how my students are doing... i hope at least they can pass... i dont expect much.. but if faris and nurrudin mantain their grade A.. is enough for me...

in the center of boredom.. there is love...

just a few more days to UPSR... im letting my student "go"... after months of torturing.. i might have make their life a bit like hell.. but well... that's how the system goes.. its exam oriented.. tapi aku tgk diorang relax ajer.. cikgu dia ni ha.. yg tak senang duduk.. huhhuhu... takut beb.. ni generasi tikus putih ni.. the first batch of Etems(teaching english in maths and science)... waaaaa... to my children.. good luck.. my prayers is always with you...

that is bout the class... frens?.. hari nih linda.. who is one of my good good fren... buat havoc.. she had just bought a new suasa necklace.. which is a trend in my school now.. some said dah outdated.. whatever.. ok back to linda.. coincidently she was wearing a baju kurung which match the necklace.. purple dress with a purple crystal suasa necklace... tapi dia pakai tudung style tak lilit2 tuh.. jenis yg konvensional tuh... amboi perkataan... labuh ke bawah... so mana nak nmpk rantai tuh.. so aku yg nakal nih.. bersama geng2 yang tak pernah low bateri nih.. provoke la linda ni to lift up her tudung a bit.. so that the necklace can be shown to the rest of us.. hahaha.. actually saja je nak bikin panas.. tapi nak jadi cerita... dulu linda used to say if she ever change her tudung style.. alamatnye hujan ribut... it turned out to be true... betul2 la hujan... cats and dogs.. sabar jela... i guess she had really dah langgar her pantang... to lah dia.. story mory of my fwensss today... luv you all... kak nor... kak zah... sariah.. kak liza...
ekekkeke...

my husband pe cite ye?... he is safe and sound kat dungun tuh... i really hope so.. actually...everyday.. we must have at least 3 to 5 times phone conversation... dari dulu pun memang dah mcm nih... within these few days.. since he transfered to the deserted area... it seems like he is so happy... and calm... compare to how he used to be.. i guess... this is good.. for us... he finally gets a job with the air that he always longed to be... surrounded with people who really understand his scope of work... congratulation sayang... i am so proud of you... bring it on baby... may god always bless us...

here i am.. still wondering.. thinking... bout moving to dungun to be with my hubby... hmmm... still cant make any decision yet... kesian kat dila pun ada... my sister yang baru move in with me.. since may.. she got a job a hospital sabak bernam... luckily she has me... tak payah nak gi cari rumah sewa dah... tulah.. dia moved in.. my hubby moved out... tuhan dah susun cantik dah... so sekarang.. macam mane ye... it was fun having her here... sekepala... if its not because of her i would have been... ntahla.. gila kot... thanx dila... for being here with me...

oklah... thats for today... sok sambung lagi... tido..tido... zzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....
from left: cuma, me,dila

unconditional love.. in the la la land...

Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That's why it's called the present... this is the third day for my husband been working far far way at the la la land.. taklah.. dungun terengganu je.. which is about 300 to 400 km from where i am now... hmmm... demi sebuah kehidupan... yelah... tak semua benda yang kita nak kita dapat... it comes with pengorbanan... at first.. well the earlier stage of our marriage.. it was hard... i used to be a typical woman who was hoping to come home everyday after work to prepare myself for my husband during nite time.. his dinner... watching news, tv program together.. making coffee for him... hmmm... well... it didnt happen the way i expected it to be.. i chose a civil engineer as my husband.. the work depends on the duration of the project.. and i guess i forgot to prepare myself for all the consequences... mula-mula dulu dia kat kuantan.. then ipoh.. then alor setar... then kuala kgsr... dekat lah masa kat kuala tuh... but still he couldnt be home everyday.. it took him 4 1/2 hours to travel to and fro... so he was only home every two days jek... i took quite a sometime to accept it.. but my dear husband.. didnt give up on me.. he comes to me.. to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly... that's who he is... who always believe in me without any prejudice...

alhamdulillah bulan pose ni.. ramadhan al mubarak... tuhan Ya Rahman Ya Rahim telah membuka mata hati ku... aku dah tak tensen mcm dulu.. cuma kadang2 tuh risau.. especially bila aku call hp.. he didnt pick it up...aaa... yang tuh pantang tuh... well im still working on it... terlampau risau pun bahaya gak..

abang... you are a blessing from god.. to me who is so full of flaws.. for that... i will always love you...unconditionally.. moga Ya Rahman Ya Rahim panjangkan umur kita...sihatkan tubuh badan kita.. panjangkan jodoh kita... ayang janji.. ayang akan cuba jaga diri, hiasi peribadi untuk abang... ayang promise ayang will be less complicated and not to be any drama queen anymore... ayang realize now.. that everything happens for a reason... kan abang... ayang saaaayang abang... muah!! jgn lupa batik sutera ayang tau...

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