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Sudah lama Jijah tak ngomel pasal kerja kan? Almaklumlah sekolah baru.. suasana baru.. Sekarang ni Cik Jijah engkome ngajar sesi petang. Mula² dulu adalah sangat seronok bila dapat tahu sebab ni pertama kali nak mengajar petang. Boleh bangun lambat!!! hikhik.. tapiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.. panjang oh tapi ku.. kepanasan di siang hari dan jadual yang sangat pack; 31 periods compare usual around 24 - 25 really put myself into a test.. antaranya.. Kak Jijah korang dah tak boleh nak over over make up cam dedolu.. cair foundation mak dek non.. eyeliner kembang smpi mata pun dah serupa mata mak panda mcm kena tumbuk.. adehhhh.. pehtu terkejar² antara solat, masuk kelas dan minum petang.. mesti minum satu kali kat sekolah.. kalau tak duduk kantin rasa macam the day is incomplete.. biar tak masuk bilik guru.. jangan tak masuk kantin.. hikhik.. 

Overall is ok.. Akak still survive uolsss.. bab paling best.. mengajar.. akak suka mengajar budak² sini.. maybe because budak² sini dah stream ikut capability masing². Even though Kak Jijah dapat kelas hujung² tapi enjoy lah mengajar diorang ni.. walaupun respond adalah sedikit hampeh macam kerja sekolah tak siap dan sebagainya tapi akak selesa mengajar budak²  ni... 

Adalah jugak kisah² terpencil macam siang tadi.. bila ada seorang murid perempuan ni yang selalu tak keluar rehat. Kak Jijah uols neh ingatkan dia tak ada duit nak rehat so bagi lah dia singgit. Sebelum tu akak interview dia dulu. Tanya dia mak ayah kerja mana, adik beradik berapa orang kan.. Katanya ayah kerja bawak lori tapi mak tak kerja, adik sorang baru, baby.. Akak tak puas hati akak tanya kawan²  dia pulak. Kawan dia kata satu hari dia bawak duit 4 hengget.. means 2 hengget pagi (sek agama) 2 hengget petang. Mak aihhhh.. banyaknya duit dia.. terkesima akak sekejap... mana pergi duitnya kalau gitu kan? rupanya duit yang dia ada tuh abes buat beli mechanical pencil dgn jajan masa sek pagi.. sabar je lah.. 

Lagi satu kisah.. ni murid lelaki pulak.. dia ni dah MC dari semalam.. hari ni MC lagik tapi orang biasa anto MC besoknya bila dah sihat dan datang sekolah kan.. ni tengahari tadi tengah akak baru nak buka mukadimah pelajaran hari ini tiba²  dia datang dengan pakaian seluar pendek+t-shirt hantar surat MC.. bukan official MC pun.. surat yang ayah dia tulis. Dia kata semalam saya selsema hari ni saya jatuh basikal sambil dihulurnya surat ayah dia tu.. Aku ni terkedu kome tau.. tak tau nak cakap apa.. sepantas kilat kejadian tu.. Selamba betul lah.. sah² la sihat walafiat kalau gitu gaya kan? tapi tak terkata apa.. esok tak datang juga.. lusa aku sound.. 

Dalam ramai² murid yang akak ko ajar tahun ni.. ada sorang yang betul² mencuit hati.. tak tercuit lah sangat tapi terkenang² lah jua.. budak ni sengau.. sengau lah sangat to the extend memang haku tak paham sesen pun apa dia cakap.. mulut dia sumbing tapi dah restructured dah and bibir dia dah elok tapi sengau dia tu tak ilang lagi..kesahnya.. bila dia bercakap, aku ni asek ter "ha? ha?".. aje dengan dia.. sampai ada sekali tu dia mintak izin nak buat apa tah aku tak bagi pasal aku tak paham dia nak buat apa.. tiba² hilang je.. rupanya dia pergi je terus tanpa izin aku pasal tak tahan sangat dah.. ye lah.. cikgunya pun tak paham².. mau tak tensen dia nya? ada sekali kitorang buat ala² motivasi untuk budak² ni main lah game tepon karat.. budak sengau ni beriya nak main.. kitorang bagi je la kan.. ingatkan ke mau tunggang langgang ayat kumpulan budak ni tapi it turn out to be one of the most complete sentence.. rupanya kawan² dia paham apa dia cakap.. walaupun dia sengau tapi dia ada keyakinan.. bagus betul.. memang sukalah dengan dia.. tapi ada jugak yang tak tahannya.. dia sengau.. tapi banyak sangat bercakap.. kaki bising tau budak ni.. hehehe.. 

Itu antara ragam baru di sekolah baru akak ni.. tak cerita lagi kat sini kena check in/out setiap hari guna thumb print.. canggih sekolah akak ni korang.. korang ada? hikhik..

I want to be free..

Im going to be 31.. soon. Let see.. my achievement so far. 

- rumah.. checked!

- kereta.. checked!

- family... checked!

- a career.. checked!

So.. am I happy.. absolutely!! I have a caring husband. We may not bless with any child just yet but we are happy. We are in our comfort zone. So far, us both still healthy with some minor tonsillitis once in a while but we are good but how good for how long Im not sure.. Im praying that God will always keep us under His protection but is it enough to just pray?

Akak dah lama dah fikir pasal nih.. Is it enough? to just deal with our daily life.. back and forth to work.. masak, kemas rumah.. Sekarang baru akak tersedar semua ini tak cukup.. tiba² je.. it hit me.. that I have to do something. What I have been doing all this while is just too comfy that I forgot life means more than this. I have yet working hard enough to achieve my dream. Akak juga sedar yang akak tak ada impian macam some people who really work their butt off to achieve their dream. How can I achieve my dream if I dont have one?  I have been putting it all to my husband. I did nothing. I just watched my husband working day and night while the savings are running low. 

Now.. I realized I do have a dream but I hesitated and ignored it at most of time. I let it passed without thinking harder. The thought just slipped in and out and thats it but not anymore. I want this badly. I want it so much. Im going to take the risk. Its risky. Its worth everything that I have but the higher the risk gets, the bigger the return is.. I just got to be brave. I just got to fight all the scepticism inside me.. and make sure that I can achieve this.. the ultimate.. FINANCIAL FREEDOM.. please pray for me.. that it is all possible.. this 2011 is just maybe the beginning.. insya Allah.. 

gossip panas!!!

che puan idot!!! this entry is especially for u.. hehehehe...

aduyaiiii.. how long is it??? hmmm.. let see.. last entry was on the 19th offfff... december 2010!!!.. astaga.. its is exactly a month that my blog is abandoned by it's so called owner cik jijah montel.. pergghhhhhh!!! sebulan uolssss... what had happened to me? too much.. tooooooo much.. 

I am officially a selangorian now.. yours truly finally moved back to Klang.. my hometown.. which of all the places..  is the worst place I have ever been to with its busy traffic, one way routes, congested area.. tapi.. di sinilah.. my sanctuary.. the most comfortable place for me to live.. by swearing and cursing.. trust me.. its a therapy.. sometimes you just got to let it out.. I swear and curse tapi sorang² lah.. iolsss tak verani lah nak suka² maki orang depan² ye.. bila dalam kereta ajek verannnniii.. vrrrroooommmmmm...

I have my own "wisteria lane" now.. hikhik.. I have new neighbours.. new surrounding.. new work place.. by the way am teaching in the afternoon session now.. It does change my life totally the other way around.. no more afternoon naps.. I still wake up early.. not too early tho.. basically I love teaching in the afternoon.. but I feel like the time is passing by so fast that I dont even have enough time to beronggeng like I used to before.. abes sekolah je.. mula la pasang niat nak memanjangkan langkah.. skrg ni.. tak sempat.. which I guess is good! I need to get myself away from the shopping mall for the time being.. need to save up $$$$ all over again.. duit abes kat renovate rumah dgn bayar PTPTipu.. hikhik.. duit ohhh duit... 

The downside is.. MM is now living far away from me.. he is still working in ganungggg kita.. once in a fortnight dia balik.. alternately driving and by flight.. like now.. I will only be seeing MM again this coming CNY.. so it is more than 2 weeks that I am hubby-less..  but Im ok.. yours truly is just so fine.. there was one nite when I missed him so much that I cried non stop smpi hilang suara semua..berejam² gayut talipon dengan MM smbl hembus hingus sbb menanges aje.. ecehhhh.. mcm zaman bercinta pulak... rupa²nya it happened that I had an imbalance hormone sbb nak datang peotttttt... tahpahape.. 

One more thing.. Im still living sans internet.. taman akak ni taman baru.. majlis daerah tak provide tiang tepon lagik.. pihak komiti taman tengah usaha lah nak apply one.. tahun bila nak pacak tiang tu tak tahulah lagi.. uolsss tahu la kan how those TM people buat kerja.. That is why lah.. blog ni macam hidup segan mati pun tamau.. hikhik.. oklah.. esok akak update blog lagi ye.. akak nak citer pasal azam tahun ni.. ha ahhh.. akak baru je dapat azam.. tahun baru dah tinggal 11 bulan jek lagi baru nak ada azam.. haihhh.. at least ada kan? ko ada? hikhik..